I amble along through life, doing this and that and finding pleasure in many things. There is so much to focus one’s mind on, so many universal mysteries and practical truths. Everything feels good, and everything feels right … and then it suddenly hits. You have broken your neck or your back and things are far from right. Things are not right at all. For a second or two — a lot more if you’re going through a bad patch or you’re hospitalised — you are chilled to the bone. Yep, chilled to the bone. That’s the only way I can put it. A horrible shudder ripples through you. You are part of the world but you are separated from it in a most horrible way. You are dependent on others. You could not survive a catastrophe. But then somehow these thoughts leave your mind and you are back ambling along through life, happy as ever. But there is a darker side to the picture I have just painted. Most of us on this website are blessed. We are blessed but few of us think about it (maybe we all do but I've never seen it written). God help people with spinal injuries in war-torn countries like Syria where medical care is practically non-existent, hospitals turned to rubble, basic commodities like wheelchairs and medical supplies and appliances — such as catheters and drainage bags, antibiotics and dressings — unobtainable. I am lucky. Yes I have a devastating spinal injury but I am lucky. I live in part of the world where I can get the medical help I need. There is somebody out there dying of a treatable urine infection, dying because he or she lives in a part of the world where healthcare is non-existent. I don’t know them personally; I may never meet them and that is awful. 'Out of sight, out of mind'. It's as if they don't exist. But I think of them. I think of them and I feel such sorrow. Yes, despite my neck injury I am blessed.
Post by kilg0retr0ut on Jan 27, 2017 17:48:00 GMT -8
Thought about it soon after my operation, I wouldn't have made it. As time goes by sometimes we forget, getting wrapped up with our own lives. It good to have a reminder, thanks Mike
I guess it's all relative, you know how when the doctor or nurse asks us , what level is your pain? I always want to ask them how much pain have they ever endured, because each of our stories and pain levels are relative to our experiences. Thanks Mike, sometimes we all need reminders as to who we are and where we have been.
Totally agree with all you say. I saw a programme on TV a couple of years ago about Handicap International, a charity that helps the people you mention. They do some awesome work. Here's their site if anyone is interested. www.handicap-international.org.uk/
When I was first injured I was given the book by John Hockenberry, a paraplegic and NPR reporter who went to the Middle East to report on the First Gulf War. I'm sure many of you on this site will have read it, but if not, it's a fascinating and harrowing insight into his perception of a war torn country from a wheelchair users perspective. He describes being hoisted and tied onto a donkey to travel through the mountains and interview Kurdish (I think) refugees. He describes an incident where he visits a young, newly injured paraplegic in Jerusalem and helps him to learn how to transfer out of bed and get into a wheelchair; something the young twenty year old had not been able to do at all. The incident he describes that's always stuck with me, though, concerns an inaccessible shelter used for chemical attacks. Hockenberry's experiences haunt me whenever I hear of these wars and these poor refugees.
Hockenberry's book is also full of some great humour, and he also share many hilarious situations we all relate to. So, much like our own experiences, it's not all doom and gloom. There are the up sides.
The book's called Moving Violations, in case anyone's interested.
And thanks, mikeg, for reminding us of all the good things we do have.
mikeq I have to be honest. Hard to feel blessed at times. Am I lucky to be still alive. Yes. But for how ever long I will live. I'll be fully dependant on others. On their kindness and good will. 24/7. For the most basic necessities. Never alone. If I wouldn't have been in a first world country. I wouldn't have survived my injury. At times that sounds more like a blessing
'There's always something magic, there's always something true. And when you really, really need it the most, that's when rock 'n roll dreams come true.'
We are both lucky to have survived and unlucky at the same time I feel. My diving accident was a complete dumb luck incident. I had done it many times before. Just this one time my face hit the sandy bottom a little harder than before. I rehabbed at the Rehab Institute of Chicago and was near burn victims. I consider myself fortunate to have broken my neck and not been a burn victim. The pain they endure constantly is beyond imagination and then the physical scars on top of that. Thankfully I'm just a quad.
mikeq I have to be honest. Hard to feel blessed at times. Am I lucky to be still alive. Yes. But for how ever long I will live. I'll be fully dependant on others. On their kindness and good will. 24/7. For the most basic necessities. Never alone. If I wouldn't have been in a first world country. I wouldn't have survived my injury. At times that sounds more like a blessing
Your post brings home the horrors of spinal injury. It hits hard. What a cruel blow and what a burden to bear. I agree that sometimes it is almost too much to bear. Thank you for writing.
I feel grateful each day to be alive and only a para. Mentally I am in a much better place then where I was 10 years prior to my accident. Years in therapy with a signed letter I would not commit suicide while in therapy with her. Now she an I stay in touch, many states separate us. So then I felt it was an easy out and now grateful I did not take that route. When my brother and his wife fly to a small town in Belize they each bring a wheelchair with. It flies free and they have gotten to know some of the locals who get the chairs to people in need.