I’m a t-5 paraplegic due to a car accident in 2005. I was under the assumption that paralysis would get better with time, like any tragedy, but still after twelve years I’m ready to call it quits. I’m 31, I share an apartment with my mother, I don’t drive (can’t even afford to), and am unemployed because I can’t find a job that would allow me to go home every 3 hours to go to the bathroom. I was in school, but had to stop because of how sick I’ve become. I’m never without a uti; I can’t even remember what it feels like to not have one. As for the other area that’s a bloody (literally) mess everyday. Due to both of these issues my spasticity has become unbearable. I’ve become confined to my home, my social life is absolutely gone, and I can no longer control my depression. I haven’t the will to live anymore because I don’t see any reason to. I’m a waste of space, an absolute loser who is going nowhere in life. As I watch everyone else around me pursue their dreams, by getting a career, getting married, and starting families, I wonder why... Why am I here? Now I know I won’t commit suicide, but it doesn’t stop me from praying every night to just die. I’m even starting to question my sanity. I haven’t a clue if any of this is reality or if I really did die in my car accident and I’m suffering in Hell. I’m not even sure why I’m creating this thread here, because my entire situation feels hopeless, but I was just thinking that maybe someone out there, just like me, is going through the exact same thing I am and could enlighten me that this misery will pass and that I, too, could be doing something instead of rotting too death in my room.
Hi sag2962. I think most people confronted with your health problems would wish to die- any escape sounds good. Please focus on getting improvement for those problems. Every small improvement will lessen spasms and make life more bearable.
Probably Bowel program is the easier place to begin since you have more control of your own diet and program for elimination. Please describe how you handle both of those things and we can then offer suggestions from our own experience. Do you have hemorrhoids? sounds possible.
It took me many years to figure out what to eat and what products to use to make bathroom time no big deal. That process has also improved my immune system so the chronic UTI is only a small annoyance.
Second question is: what is your situation for medical care. Chronic UTI is common now because doctors only treat when the UTI is affecting out lives, but obviously yours are. What have you been through with this? Ho often were you treated with antibiotics? Which ones? I know it seems strange to tell strangers such details but we all share the same problems and often someone who has been through the same thing can help.
Hii Sag. My most miserable was being stuck in nursing homes for a year and a half. We weren't allowed to have even a nail clipper. Me having one, tucked away, made me an "outlaw". I'm finally back living in my own home. An aide comes four days a week. I ride the public van once a week to the grocery store. That's almost all the contact I have with the outside world.
Do you cook for yourself? If you can't reach the stove, can you at least access the refridgerator and get things out to make your own salad? Cooking for myself gives me satisfaction, plus it allows me more control over my health than just eating what others prepare.
For hemorrhoids, I take Collinsonia Root (also called Stone Root). For bleeding, I take capsules of Cayenne Pepper, or else I put slivers of fresh jalapeño pepper in my salad. There are many other herbs that strengthen capilaries and blood vessels. Do you use a vinyl glove with a nice oil as a lubricant (almond oil, olive oil) for your anus? Sorry to combine food and toilet in the same paragraph, but the two are necessarily related in this context.
hi sag2962, and welcome. I feel the same about myself at times but than I remind myself about what I do have, instead of what I don't have. it sounds like u have a loving mother and a home, that's quite a bit right there. think of those things when feeling crappy.
I’m a t-5 paraplegic due to a car accident in 2005. I was under the assumption that paralysis would get better with time, like any tragedy, but still after twelve years I’m ready to call it quits. I’m 31, I share an apartment with my mother, I don’t drive (can’t even afford to), and am unemployed because I can’t find a job that would allow me to go home every 3 hours to go to the bathroom. I was in school, but had to stop because of how sick I’ve become. I’m never without a uti; I can’t even remember what it feels like to not have one. As for the other area that’s a bloody (literally) mess everyday. Due to both of these issues my spasticity has become unbearable. I’ve become confined to my home, my social life is absolutely gone, and I can no longer control my depression. I haven’t the will to live anymore because I don’t see any reason to. I’m a waste of space, an absolute loser who is going nowhere in life. As I watch everyone else around me pursue their dreams, by getting a career, getting married, and starting families, I wonder why... Why am I here? Now I know I won’t commit suicide, but it doesn’t stop me from praying every night to just die. I’m even starting to question my sanity. I haven’t a clue if any of this is reality or if I really did die in my car accident and I’m suffering in Hell. I’m not even sure why I’m creating this thread here, because my entire situation feels hopeless, but I was just thinking that maybe someone out there, just like me, is going through the exact same thing I am and could enlighten me that this misery will pass and that I, too, could be doing something instead of rotting too death in my room.
Hi sag2962, you created the spread because you need to vent and you are very justified in doing so. It sounds like you need to have a complete assessment of you requirements and needs. You should not be living with a permanent UTI, the doctors who oversee your care should be looking at alternative treatments. Write a list of each issue that you are dealing with and what treatment you have been given for it, meds etc.
Your SCI will be there for the foreseeable but approaches to associating conditions related to SCI are always changing and developing. Make sure you speak to someone and have a review of what you take for each.
Get support from any associations in your country, send an organised letter with this list, tell them how you are feeling and get guidance and help..Make enough noise so you are listened to,. your body and life is important. You have every right to live it to the fullest, we are not living in the 1800's anymore so make this your purpose, get onto this and make a difference. If you need any help, emailing or support, give me a message and il help in any way I can.
Thank you all so much for responding it really means a great deal to me, because I’ve just felt so alone in all of this. I have been trying to figure out what the underlying problem is for the increase in spasticity. I’ve recently had a cystoscopy and the doctor said that my bladder is extremely irritated and inflamed. It’s completely covered in red patches and there was no white areas like a normal bladder. He gave me Macrobid as a preventative to take three times a week and he gave me Amoxicillin 500 mg for when an infection is present. I just finished one course of the Amoxicillin and I have started my second and I still don’t feel any better. This is also my second urologist because the first one I had a problem with for doing certain procedures on me without anesthesia and I would get automatic dysreflexia. She also treated me with disrespect. I have been on so many antibiotics for this and none of them seem to be effective. I’m allergic to Cipro, Bactrim, and sulfa drugs so there goes some of the better medicines for UTIs. I was getting a powder drug (I can’t remember the name) that actually responded well, but because of my insurance the process of getting it would take over a week and my UTIs started turning into kidney infections. I’m at a loss because I don’t feel I have any options left for a medicine that responds to my infections. As for the other, the blood is not hemorrhoid blood, even though I deal with that as well, this blood is a much darker red and I just know something is not right with my intestines. I was supposed to have a colonoscopy done in November, before Thanksgiving, but I pushed for an Endoscopy as well, so it was switched to December 5. However, they messed up getting me in the hospital for the prep because I cannot do it at home, since I will get autonomic dysreflexia, so the endoscopy was only done. Which, I’m glad I pushed for that because precancerous polyps were found, so now I have to have that done yearly. As for the colonoscopy I was told they would call me to reschedule and when they didn’t I got frustrated, so I went up there and was told the next appointment they could have it done would be February 8. I don’t think these doctors understand that what is going on is more of a big deal for someone with our disability. Having to have this severe pain with the added bonus of increased spasticity and autonomic dysreflexia headaches. That two months is just an awful long wait. I’m suffering, but I’m trying to be patient. I did have this rant and it really help getting it out, then keeping it bottled up inside.
Tetra, if you don’t mind me asking what kind of diet is it that you are on because I’m interested in changing my eating habits as well, since everything I’ve been eating lately is causing pain, too.
Vintage, I am able to cook for myself if things are left within reach, but sitting longer than 30 minutes becomes extremely painful especially if I’m lifting or cutting, but I do try to do it a few times a week. I’m also terribly sorry to hear about you having have been in nursing homes I can’t even fathom what that was like for you.
Sam, I do also think about those things and I am grateful for a lot, (including the use of my arms) even though I’m aware it didn’t sound like it in my post. I just needed to vent that out that night, but thanks for the advice.
Lara, you are absolutely right and I am trying to get these things resolved, but it is taking so much time because my doctors seem clueless as to what to do with me and not all of them agree with each other. I have one doctor telling me to increase cathing when a UTI is present, while the other doctor is telling me to do it less because this is the cause of infections. I am going to try hard to make myself heard because I know my life means more to me than just feeling this miserable.
Once again, thank you all so much for the responses it’s much appreciated.
Sag, parasites can cause bleeding. I also suspect parasites for the red patches on your bladder. I suggest the herbs wormwood, cloves, and black walnut hull tincture. Also, for any inflamation, I give myself an hour-long treatment with a zapper. (Zappers are not "approved" for medical treatment.) For simple UTI's I make a tea of marshmallow root, hydrangea root, and gravel root,...then add a dash of black cherry juice. Googling these remedies will bring up a myriad of alternative therapy sites.
Sag sorry to hear you are having such trouble with all of this but sounds like you are getting some of it sorted out. Utis are a mess I am a T3 para and I have an augmented bladder now with part of my small intestine patched into the bladder wall so it introduced all kinds of new bacteria into the bladder that shouldn't be there I am always colonized now. I fight utis all the time I have to irrigate my bladder daily to try and flush some of it out to slow the infection down as antibiotics don't work well anymore. I take lots of Doterra oils to try and boost my immune system up it has been one rocky road over the last 13 years I have been exactly where you are and it's not easy it's a daily struggle but we are all here for each other especially. Would love love love to chat more if you have any other questions
For stomach problems, I put a few drops of oregano oil into an empty capsule (put the top on and close it), then take it with water. Ssgbridges mentioned DoTerra oils. I have some of those. They are wonderful. But I ordered my oregano oil from drclarkstore, and it works great. I also use a Syncrozap zapper for general malaise, though it is not an FDA medically approved device. (I love mine. Buy one.)
I use doterra oils daily. Oregano and lemon work great on utis if I see any change in my urine I use the lemon and oregano in a capsule. Have not had a uti in years now. Right now my saving oil is copaiba. It is a very new oil for doterra. Doing wonders for my pain. I have gone from 60 to 70 Vicodin a month to about 10. I wish it was more available so I could say more about it. Right now it is only 1 per month. Mainly because people are getting amazing results in pain management. Once it becomes more available I will share more. One antibiotic I never see on this forum is vantin.I had uti's back to back while in the hospital I was about to be put on something stronger that had to be administered by iv only, when a new doctor suggested vantin. My pharmacy had to order it in, but it worked very well until I was able to switch to my oils. Back to your struggle, it is hard some days to be grateful for only being a para. Yes para sucks but every quad on here will tell you they wish they were a para instead. So sorry yours happened at such a young age. Life is not fair or easy,
Please let us know when more copaiba oil is available, Lavender. It sounds great. Also, I see that other countries have known about it for a long time. “The oil-resin of Copaifera reticulata Ducke is used in the Brazilian folk medicine as an anti-inflammatory and healing agent. However, there are no investigations on the possible anti-inflammatory and neuroprotective roles of copaiba oil-resin (COR) after neural disorders. We have investigated the anti-inflammatory and neuroprotective effects of COR following an acute damage to the motor cortex of adult rats...” www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3291111/
Doterra offers deep blue capsules that have helped with pain they are highly concentrated I take up to 6 a day. I also use the deep blue oil as a topical treatment for pain I take all the ones you guys have mentioned as well as melaluca on guard black pepper lemon in a capsule daily as an immune system support and if I am getting sick or a UTI I take that capsule every 3 to 4 hours and it works wonders.
What shape would we be in without our wonderful natural cures? I’’m grateful every day that I’m at home where I can use my herbal remedies, and not in a nursing home where they were seen as proof of mental aberration on the part of the user.
Just now, tonight, I drank Martinelli’s Apple juice for a little discomfort in my gallbladder area. On an impulse, I added drops of fennel essential oil, DoTerra brand (food grade), to my glass of cold apple juice. It was delicious!
Aha! “Fennel may help support the health of the lungs and respiratory tract and can be added to water or tea to help fight sweet tooth cravings.* Fennel is also known for its ability to promote healthy metabolism, liver function, and circulation.* www.doterra.com/US/en/p/sweet-fennel-oil
I have been using Doterra oils for about 8 months now. I am no longer in need of any medication for spasms or pain. I also use Lavender's method to help keep UTI at bay. 3 drops of Copaiba under my tongue daily as well. This with a diet change and more meditation has literally changed my life.