SCI Regrets are Sometimes Unavoidable

Sorry Lara, I can kinda relate. In my head I still think I can still do everything, but the truth is physically.....I can't.
The more time goes by the more I find I'm having trouble with. I just got back from the docs the other day. She told me I have to rest more, take breaks, put my legs up, hire people to do things for me, and relax. Good advice I'll never be able to take.
I want quality of life over quantity. I will continue to push myself until I'm dead and I won't change. It's what makes me me.
Dumb as that sounds it's the truth.

Beautiful animals Lαrα. Im so sorry you have to rehome them.  I feel your pain and I can fully empathize with you.  I used to take my neighbors retriever for walks, now she sees me and gets excited but I can't do it anymore, I get so aggravated.  Two motorcycles are sitting in my garage, I go look at them once in awhile and cry, but I just can't push the button to get rid of them.  I don't think I ever will.  Im here to piss and moan with you and punch the wall, aint nothing wrong with that!!  Somehow I see it changing at some point, and being able to stand up again, but we just don't know fer sure.  Ive come to peace with the fact that it did happen, and I accept it for fear of self distructing in anger, but I won't give up the path to physical recovery and walking, that keeps me going.  speak soon !!! 

Sorry for the loss of your beautiful horses it must break your heart to part with them. As you know i have Fibromyalgia/CFs and believe me I understand your feeling of loss. I too have found the life I took for granted pulled from under my feet. We all like to be as positive as we can but there is no shame in feeling our loss at times. We are human and we feel deeply your in my thoughts Lara .

Thankyou guys for posting your support...and mo...lol Well to be honest much dosent get me down but today im more down than ive been in a long time...
...... I wish i could look after them myself..God i used to much 7 out a day and rise and school them ..and now....well i cant

I know that nothing stays the same in life but it would be nice for something to be consistent...and good

I know life isnt a fairy tale but from where i am right...its feels pretty sh*t

Oh Lara! I am so sorry that you have to place your gorgeous horses. After my husband died, my neighbour took over feeding my horses. When I moved back to Canada, I sold 2 of the 3 and board my mare at a friend's. Is there any way you could board them and have someone exercise them? Life can be so sh***y. CES takes so much of us, why does it have to take the things that we love so much?? My thoughts are with you.

Lαrα - I'm so sorry this is happening to you. Those are beautiful horses, I don't know much about them, but they look nice.

Ah well...so be it..this is life sometimes so onwards and upwards