Pink sugar whenever i want to die i think of how sad everyone who loves me would be and realize in some ways we live for others not just for ourselves. I think you are brave to open up to us and i hope it helps to know other people are there for you even it is in the netherworld of the internet.
To be honest, that's exactly how I felt when I was first injured. I then thought about my family and the bad thoughts cleared my mind.
I think its all in the perspective With a face like that and hopefully a more positive and bubbly life outlook it certainly would be hard for any man not to live without.
I think what tortures me the most is the thoughts in my mind. The SCI is hell but the thoughts that go on inside my brain from day to day in terms of personal insecurity and depression is the most miserable part of the entire package. I get insecure about how I look in public and how people react to me, especially being on a vent(which I hate)to the point where it's something I constantly worry about. I still go out more so than before, but I have trouble finding confidence and tend to avoid eye contact.
I wish you could go on a cruise. It would be a week of luxury that is fully accessible. The wheelchair friendly cabins have plenty of room for a powerchair. You would still need someone to help you, but it would be worth it.
Heck, if I lived near you we could have powerchair races up and down the street and freak the neighbors out.
As long as we can make someone else smile we have a purpose! I really hope you find someone to make you smile too.
I think what tortures me the most is the thoughts in my mind. The SCI is hell but the thoughts that go on inside my brain from day to day in terms of personal insecurity and depression is the most miserable part of the entire package. I get insecure about how I look in public and how people react to me, especially being on a vent(which I hate)to the point where it's something I constantly worry about. I still go out more so than before, but I have trouble finding confidence and tend to avoid eye contact.
I wish you could go on a cruise. It would be a week of luxury that is fully accessible. The wheelchair friendly cabins have plenty of room for a powerchair. You would still need someone to help you, but it would be worth it.
Heck, if I lived near you we could have powerchair races up and down the street and freak the neighbors out.
As long as we can make someone else smile we have a purpose! I really hope you find someone to make you smile too.
I wish I had a more constructive comment than this, but I couldn't agree more.