Post by Lαrα on Aug 1, 2014 12:20:13 GMT -8
Hey guys...this is one of those posts i get an urge to write after ive been reflecting on my life...my CES/SCI and where i am now. When i look back to 31/2 years ago, i can remember what a mess of confusion i was.
I didn't know what to do or where to turn....I had returned home from my spinal surgery oblivious to what led ahead for me. This was a pinnacle point in my life...i was thinking at the time about leaving a very challenging relationship and i felt tested beyond compare...Tested with the pain and then the physical issues and of course..the big one...no longer being able to walk.
I would dream at night that i was 'able' again..i would be riding my horses, running and always running to my parents home to tell them im ok now.
Even as an adult my Mum worried so much about me and would sit combing my hair for me every day (yes i could do it myself but she liked to do it lol)
My family all know my character well and if i want to do something, i will do it. Im determined to a fault...Though i do think i come across as quiet so it can come as a surprise. I cry too easy ..because i feel deeply yet i can experience the worst pain in the world and i wont shed a tear...so..deep down im kinda strong....Im just soft too lol
Approx 2 years ago..i decided to give my all and work my butt off to improve what i could..and i never stopped. I have pushed myself at the gym sometimes more than i needed and pushed my upright mobility just as much....(of course being careful)
But the important thing is.....this benchmark they stick on us, saying we cant improve after 2 years is rubbish! The medical profession just cant say for certain that someone will not regain function because if they knew that they would be able to find a cure!
What also helped was that this last year i have kept to a healthy eating plan and lost approx 28lb...which doesent sound so much but its made such a difference..Its so important to keep the weight of your joints....You need them to last!
And remember the joy in life....because its still there...,,you just gotta see it from a different perspective, thats all. You may as well be cheerful and SCI'd rather than miserable.
I like to think ive come pretty far...at least i know whats going on with my body...and i took control....and ive improved...and so can you!
What do you say! 
