Post by mimm on Dec 10, 2016 1:17:01 GMT -8
Hi I just wanted to share my 2 year annivasary of my last day of walking in to hospital after being told in one day op one day home next day !! 3, days I can handle that ..
8 months in hospital 5 ops later no walking, severe spasms everyday .and in worse situation than before op ..yep lifes a b**** then you die ...
Only now am I trying to get my head around it as ive been in a black hole when I woke up in recovery after the first op and the surgeon looked at me and said yep all gone well !!# I looked at him and said why cant I feel anything from chest down ...
As you can imagine I went into shock back i n surgery 6 hours later after nearly dying !##
The rest is just a spiral down of more damage ....
So today here I am pulling the dregs of the black sludge that had engulfed me since that day.. I can smile ,and belly laugh with tears at funny things , I can see a light at the end of the tunnel ..
((Not the light at the end of the tunnel you apparently see when ur dying lol lol))
Life has started to feel brighter ,only in the last couple of months did I m a manage to come out of it ,how ??ive.no idea I just woke up put tv on and saw something funny and for first time in 2,years actually laughed my head of and was suddenly back to ME ..who is calm ,laughs at the stupidest thing ..and loves life ..spent years working with disabled adults encouraging them to be independent and showing them the tools how to do it ..
So I just want to say to anyone reading this and in a very dark place ,you can get out of it I know it seems like you cant and maybe today you feel lonely ,focus on where you want to be ,pull the positives and create a new life for yourself , feel free to message me even if its simple hi im a new friend ..today I woke up and feel grateful.for being able to wake up and having the opportunity to have this day,
trust me my life is far from perfect and still very early day.days trying to suss out what job prospects I can do ,how to pay the bills , the pain is horrendous ,the spasms are HELL..
BUT im sat smiling wrighting this because
IM HERE ABLE TO DO IT AND TRYING TO MAKE THE BEST OF ME I CAN ..
Thank you xx
) and thought it might be encouraging for you to know that my husband Peter had a similar experience following an op for decompression due to stenosis and some old rugby injuries. His lasting problems from a "successful" operation are not as severe as yours sound - but I understand all you say about the experience. Spasticity was (and still is to a lesser extent) his biggest problem. 
