We are all too aware of the physical function that a Spinal Cord Injury takes away from us and with this physical loss of function comes loss in other areas of our lives. It is therefor not surprising that many individuals with SCI become depressed or have feelings of sadness and resentment.
Depression is found two or three times more often among people who are paralyzed than among the non disabled – it is common but not normal. Becoming discouraged, grief-stricken or sad is normal, but depression is a health problem unto itself (according to the Christopher and Diana Reeves Association)
I can only use my own personal experiences to help relate to this so......
When i became injured i lost.... my relationship...my competitive sport which was my hobby...my business....my friends....dignity....and more......So..i had become physically challenged but i had my mental and emotional wellbeing challenged too. Thankfully i have a resilient nature which helped me through the difficult times but thats not to say i havent had times when i didnt feel sorry for myself because i have. Especially when i have been sat on my bed with used catheters strewn around the bed and me in tears of frustration because of badder spasms every time i cathed
In all honesty i have never met a more resilient group of people than those with Spinal Cord Injuries who are determined, positive and driven to maintain a quality of life and with a splash of humour thrown in. I laugh at myself all the time for my physical quirks lol
But sometimes i wonder if we try too hard to be strong and positive...we all must have natural feelings of vulnerability and feel just down right pissed at whats happened...we are only human after all. The main issue is how we deal with those feelings....we can either sink or swim with them and unfortunately some sink Depression if it takes a hold is a curse to deal with in itself...waking up with the physical daily challenges is one thing but then to wake up with a daily mental and emotional one is just too much to deal with....
Some time ago i put together some information on depression...here is the link for anyone who would like to read it
Good question Lαrα! I do feel down once in a while which is while I chose "rarely". I don't really make an effort to stay positive as I'm just a positive person in general but on the days I feel down, I try my best to snap out of out and most of the time I succeed Depression is a strong word, it's an illness, a person isn't depressed if they're temporarily feeling sad. There are many people that suffer from it unfortunately but a lot of people really aren't 'depressed' if you know what I mean. I've never gone more than 2 days in a row feeling down, I've never needed to seek medical attention for it so I can't say that I've ever been depressed.
Good question Lαrα! I do feel down once in a while which is while I chose "rarely". I don't really make an effort to stay positive as I'm just a positive person in general but on the days I feel down, I try my best to snap out of out and most of the time I succeed Depression is a strong word, it's an illness, a person isn't depressed if they're temporarily feeling sad. There are many people that suffer from it unfortunately but a lot of people really aren't 'depressed' if you know what I mean. I've never gone more than 2 days in a row feeling down, I've never needed to seek medical attention for it so I can't say that I've ever been depressed.
What you say is perfectly said DJ....depression is indeed something much more serious than the general 'feeling down; days. Its very important that if someone starts to find that they cant snap out of these moods then they should seek medical help.
I voted sometimes because i felt very depressed after my injury. I was given counselling which helped but thankfully my children keep me too busy to have time to dwell on anything for too long. Keeping the mind busy when the bad thoughts trickle in have helped me
i admit to suffering with depression and anxiety all my life, depression runs in the family, i remember my mother was always crying when we were kids. I have to take anti depressants, i have come off them twice before thinking i was OK, but its only a matter of time before i sink.......i am still sunk but the anti depressants make me believe that everything is Hunky Dory. I was depressed as a kid but didnt know it, its not all doom and gloom though, i really like to laugh (which also has its consequences)
jeangenie....i can imagine the battle that you have had with depression so hats off to you
Your honestly about it is refreshing..some people dont find it easy to admit to but it is absolutely nothing to feel awkward about......It is a serious but little acknowledged medical condition....and many people try to deal with it without any help..that must be so hard....
You have to keep laughing (i understand the consequences )......because if you dont..you will cry!.....as the saying goes lol.
I'm sorry to hear that jeangenie, that is unfortunately what depression really is. I'm assuming it's due to chemical imbalances in the brain? It's good you like to laugh, it's healthy Try to stay positive, we'll be here to help!
Post by kilg0retr0ut on Nov 13, 2013 7:21:57 GMT -8
Thanks for being so honest jeangenie for being so honest as Lαrα stated well it can be awkward to talk about. They (physiotherapist) that I suffer moderate depression. A V.A. doctor thought I was suffering from P.T.S.D. I dissagreed with both. Soon after my injury the P.T.,'s O.T, doctors,all seemed convinced I should go see the "pain specialist". I knew I only had so much time to regain function so I focused myself entirely on that. Told all parties that if my head needed fixing I'd deal with it at a later date. The insurance co. nurse told me she'd seen one person recover completely form my type of injury and that was all I needed to hear. For the first two years I went on the most agressive phyical workout scheldule my body could take.
Soon after the two year mark reality started to settle in. I made huge progress those first two years, but I was finding my bodies limits, and I didn't like them. Due to lack of sleep I was starting to feel like I might be a danger to our 5yr. old daughter. I had a limit in time I was able to remain upright in a day.
They put me only Lyrica and Tramadol. I didn't use the Tramadol right away, the Lyrica seemed to help the episodes of pain. One day I had to go play horseshoes, so I decided to try the Tram. I was amazed at how my legs felt compared to without it. I started taking both together full time. It was working fine for awhile after most of the side effects wore off. Two that persisted, now that I could make it a whole day on my feet, was servere tiredness, cluttered mind. I asked my doc about it she said I might have a slight case of A.D.D. I finally decided to see the shrink ( no disrespect towards shrinks just shorter to write), and she also said she thought I had P.T.S.D, and depression, and A.D.D., I was starting to think they thought I was in denile.
So similar to DJ I felt like if this is what they thought, I felt I had been dealing with the situation well. Whatever happens me in my life, what can you really do but just Drive On.
So they sent me to a high powered shrink who only delt with A.D.D. He opened my eye's, I never felt I was operating differently from anyone else. but the conclusion was I did have A.D.D., moderate depression, and slight P.T.S.D. I still really believe I don't suffer from P.T.S.D. If your in a foxhole and watch you buddie die right next to you, yes P.T.S.D for sure, but not what happened to me.
The moderate depression, oh well, still heading forward. The A.D.D. suprised me. I really didn't think it was real, maybe they were trying to helpget the Ok for a stimulant. But in all honesty I have to admit I can't argue the evidence. I'm almost 48 and have A.D.D. They started me on a time release Methylphenida, I haven't googled it yet but I'm guessing its a type of stimulant. I don't notice much, maybe a tad better, my wife thinks it slows me down abit. I guess we'll see.
I'm really anti-drug but the shrink had explained the chemical inbalance made it harder for me and that with my head clear I'm on a more level playing field. Again the verdicts still out on all this, we'll see.
This may be the longest post in Inspired's history, no hard feelings if this was too much to read. Drive On.........................Mark
jeangenie, I apologize for not mentioning this earlier as I didn't realize but like Lαrα and kilg0retr0ut have said, thank you for being open and honest
Great post kilg0retr0ut, thank you for being open and honest too I had to google what P.T.S.D. (post traumatic stress disorder) but I knew exactly what it was as soon as I read it. It's crazy how we think we don't have any problems with us mentally but upon close examination we learn that we do. Like you've said, it must take something serious to have P.T.S.D. but I know someone very well who suffers from it. Regarding the A.D.D I've never been diagnosed with it but sometimes I think I have a very mild case of it. Do you feel that you suffer from it slightly as well?
I actually had a neuropsychological assessment done back in March to assess my brain capabilities and when I got the results back last month they concluded that I actually suffered a slight brain injury due to my accident which slightly affects my long term memory. My parents and I have actually noticed the change but I didn't think I suffered from any kind of brain injury. I guess it could have been worse so I guess I'll consider myself lucky.