Coloplast Speedicath

I appreciate you all sharing your experience. My bladder is a mess, so things are going to be changing for my management, just not sure how at this time. I cannot cath myself, lack of sensation in hands and also on body make it difficult even with using mirror. How can one do this away from home? I am afraid if I become dependent on cathing that I will be even less mobile than now, and that will affect my ability to work. At home, I cannot imagine cathing on toilet (portable potty chair) because I have to use one hand to hang on so I don't lose my balance. I am afraid to cath on bed, because I don't have the energy to clean up a mess...and gross factor huge.  This is very unsettling to me.  I do not have anyone to assist at home, and in-home care is not an affordable option.